Me, the bad friend
Recently, I've been thinking about how lousy I am when it comes in keeping in touch with friends. I can count with 10 fingers how many old friends i.e. school mates and college friends I'm in touch with now.
There's phone, there's MSN, there's Yahoo Messenger, there's Skype, there's e-mail. I never seem to put them into good use.
Maybe I'm just plain lazy.
I see friends online and I hardly talk to them. I have about 80 contacts on my MSN list and how many do I talk to at least once a week? Less than 10. How pathetic.
I knew I could use my summer break to catch up with old friends but I used 'they're all in uni' as an excuse. I only met up with 4 or 5 friends. I'm just never good at organising gatherings. I always wait till people call me up. Very passive.
Sigh... What happened to those 'friendship forever' stuffs? I wonder.
Adeline Yen Ma's grandfather told her- The only thing that doesn't change is everything changes. I agree. Best friend from college doesn't mean she/he's still the best friend now. I guess distance is probably the main culprit. Or maybe I'm just blaming distance?
Does 'Although-we-don't-talk-much-you're-always-in-my-mind' kinda thing still work?
Since school started, I make friends but I'm afraid to have close friends. Not that I can't. It's just that I don't want to. Too many bad experience. I'd rather keep my distance. I cried silently when I saw my best friend left home in the summer. I cried because I knew we wouldn't be as close as we used to before. I cried because I know we won't see each other like how we used to.
That's why I insisted on getting a studio apartment instead of a shared flat.
I'm pretty fucked up at the moment.
Crap. My neighbour is smoking weed again. Perhaps I should be a bitch and report it to the police. It's getting on my nerves now.
There's phone, there's MSN, there's Yahoo Messenger, there's Skype, there's e-mail. I never seem to put them into good use.
Maybe I'm just plain lazy.
I see friends online and I hardly talk to them. I have about 80 contacts on my MSN list and how many do I talk to at least once a week? Less than 10. How pathetic.
I knew I could use my summer break to catch up with old friends but I used 'they're all in uni' as an excuse. I only met up with 4 or 5 friends. I'm just never good at organising gatherings. I always wait till people call me up. Very passive.
Sigh... What happened to those 'friendship forever' stuffs? I wonder.
Adeline Yen Ma's grandfather told her- The only thing that doesn't change is everything changes. I agree. Best friend from college doesn't mean she/he's still the best friend now. I guess distance is probably the main culprit. Or maybe I'm just blaming distance?
Does 'Although-we-don't-talk-much-you're-always-in-my-mind' kinda thing still work?
Since school started, I make friends but I'm afraid to have close friends. Not that I can't. It's just that I don't want to. Too many bad experience. I'd rather keep my distance. I cried silently when I saw my best friend left home in the summer. I cried because I knew we wouldn't be as close as we used to before. I cried because I know we won't see each other like how we used to.
That's why I insisted on getting a studio apartment instead of a shared flat.
I'm pretty fucked up at the moment.
Crap. My neighbour is smoking weed again. Perhaps I should be a bitch and report it to the police. It's getting on my nerves now.
