MooPig & The Babe

I can be bitter at times.

I think the mood swing is back again.

The thought of shutting everyone out of my life is back again.

My life seems grey now.

Retail therapy didn't cheer me up. Neither did the horrible strawberry cheesecake at Cafe Concerto.

What have I done wrong? I don't deserve all these shits. Life is so unfair at times. Just because I refused to suck up to the tutor and lick his shoes did not mean I didn't deserve his help. He denied me a better education. He refused to help me and he brushed me off with a pathetic excuse. If I could undo the past, I would choose the right choice and STILL NOT SUCK UP TO HIM. I'm not a bright student but I can safely say I'm a good student. In the teachers' eyes, I didn't break any school rules. I handed up my home work, I did not smoke, I came back on time, I attended classes diligently. I was a quiet student. Just because I did not perform well does not mean I'm useless and I didn't deserve his help. If he denied to help me why did he help other students who performed worst than me? Hypocrite. I hate you, S, I hate you. Hate is the word. I absolutely hate you.

Too many things happened in the past few days. I found out too many things. I am bitter. I am not a forgiving person until the other person apologised. I bear grudge. I am mean.

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I gave up coffee and cigarettes
I hate to say it hasn’t helped me yet
I thought my problems would just dissipate
And all my pain would be in yesterday

I poured my booze all down the kitchen drain
And watched all my bad habits get flushed away
I thought that that would keep my head on straight
And all my pain would be in yesterday

But it’s true
I’m still blue
But I finally know what to do
I must quit, I must quit….. you.

I thought that if I didn’t go and play
The sadness would get bored and go away
I thought that if I didn’t go astray
That all my pain would be in yesterday

But it’s true I’m still blue
But I finally know what to do
I must quit, I must quit….. you.

I sold my guitar and my piano
I thought that it was these that kept me low
I thought if only I could try and change
That all my pain would be in yesterday

But it’s true
I’m still blue
But I finally know what to do
I must quit, I must quit…. You.
I must quit, I must quit…. You.