A loner, I am
I am a loner. Well, most of the time, I am one.
I dislike crowds. I try to avoid them. That's the reason why I hardly step into a club. I feel so lost when I'm in a big crowd full of strangers. I don't know what to do, where to stand, who to talk to. In a crowd, I'd rather be alone. Sometimes, I talk to strangers who click with me. That's when I can talk non-stop. I enjoy chilling out with a few friends. I enjoy meeting up with schoolmates and good friends.
My production rate is at its maximum when I'm alone in a quiet place. That's why I'm in my room most of the time. I can't concentrate on reading my story book when it's noisy, let alone study. There shall be 100% quietness when I'm studying/reading/blogging. Not even classical music is allowed. However, I can listen to music while doing Maths and I perform better! ;) I hardly go to the library for revisions- It can be noisy at times. I study in the library when I'm in the mood for a change of environment. Besides, my room is the cosiest place. A cup of tea is just a few steps away. The washroom is just downstairs. The best part- I don't even need to dress up. I can be in my PJ when I'm in my room.
I remember myself being not so anti-social when I was younger- say 5 or 6. As I grow older, I became more and more anti-social. I dislike having 'fake' conversations with the kepo-chis (busybody) in town. I absolutely hate the idea of putting up a fake smile on my face and pretend to be the perfect daughter in front of my parents' friends. I get headaches when I go out for dinners with my parents' friends whom I've never met before. The thought of sitting there like an idiot with no one to talk to is just horrible, terrible and... ve-ge-ta-ble!
I don't have many friends around me. I don't spend a lot of time socialising. I'm in my room most of the time. I go online, I blog, I read news, I read my books, I chat, I listen to music in my room and sometimes, I even have my meals in my room. I have a few good friends. Quality, not quantity. Good friends are always there for me when I need somebody to talk to, or when I need a helping hand or a crying shoulder. Good friends need not be physically near me. They're always close to me in my heart and I know that. That's why I appreciate my good friends.
I am in a foreign land but I don't have many Ang moh friends. Does it matter? My parents are not quite happy about it. They think I should hang out with the Ang Mohs sometimes. Dad said I should invite them over for dinner or high tea. Yes, Dad has a point. He wants me to have friends from all over the world. Network, girl! I do have Ang Moh friends but we're not close. We're only hi-bye friends who chat before lectures start. When I was staying in the halls, I tried to hang out with them but I failed. I was the only non-angmoh in the group. In the kitchen, I sat there like an idiot, trying to figure out the British jokes which seemed like a foreign language which I couldn't understand. I volunteered to be a peer guide because I could meet more people but what did I get in the end? A few of them looked down on me and ignored my suggestions. I met a few on the street and said 'hi' to them but they just ignored me. Well, not all of them are like that- a few cocky ones. There are a few who are genuine.
I am a loner. I am sometimes anti-social. That's me.
I dislike crowds. I try to avoid them. That's the reason why I hardly step into a club. I feel so lost when I'm in a big crowd full of strangers. I don't know what to do, where to stand, who to talk to. In a crowd, I'd rather be alone. Sometimes, I talk to strangers who click with me. That's when I can talk non-stop. I enjoy chilling out with a few friends. I enjoy meeting up with schoolmates and good friends.
My production rate is at its maximum when I'm alone in a quiet place. That's why I'm in my room most of the time. I can't concentrate on reading my story book when it's noisy, let alone study. There shall be 100% quietness when I'm studying/reading/blogging. Not even classical music is allowed. However, I can listen to music while doing Maths and I perform better! ;) I hardly go to the library for revisions- It can be noisy at times. I study in the library when I'm in the mood for a change of environment. Besides, my room is the cosiest place. A cup of tea is just a few steps away. The washroom is just downstairs. The best part- I don't even need to dress up. I can be in my PJ when I'm in my room.
I remember myself being not so anti-social when I was younger- say 5 or 6. As I grow older, I became more and more anti-social. I dislike having 'fake' conversations with the kepo-chis (busybody) in town. I absolutely hate the idea of putting up a fake smile on my face and pretend to be the perfect daughter in front of my parents' friends. I get headaches when I go out for dinners with my parents' friends whom I've never met before. The thought of sitting there like an idiot with no one to talk to is just horrible, terrible and... ve-ge-ta-ble!
I don't have many friends around me. I don't spend a lot of time socialising. I'm in my room most of the time. I go online, I blog, I read news, I read my books, I chat, I listen to music in my room and sometimes, I even have my meals in my room. I have a few good friends. Quality, not quantity. Good friends are always there for me when I need somebody to talk to, or when I need a helping hand or a crying shoulder. Good friends need not be physically near me. They're always close to me in my heart and I know that. That's why I appreciate my good friends.
I am in a foreign land but I don't have many Ang moh friends. Does it matter? My parents are not quite happy about it. They think I should hang out with the Ang Mohs sometimes. Dad said I should invite them over for dinner or high tea. Yes, Dad has a point. He wants me to have friends from all over the world. Network, girl! I do have Ang Moh friends but we're not close. We're only hi-bye friends who chat before lectures start. When I was staying in the halls, I tried to hang out with them but I failed. I was the only non-angmoh in the group. In the kitchen, I sat there like an idiot, trying to figure out the British jokes which seemed like a foreign language which I couldn't understand. I volunteered to be a peer guide because I could meet more people but what did I get in the end? A few of them looked down on me and ignored my suggestions. I met a few on the street and said 'hi' to them but they just ignored me. Well, not all of them are like that- a few cocky ones. There are a few who are genuine.
I am a loner. I am sometimes anti-social. That's me.
